I feel like I am reentering the land of the living. After spending most of the past few days resting and relaxing, I have some energy. I decided to look through the pics I took the day before my surgery and see if I could find anything worth posting. I was surprised to find that I love the pictures that I took. It seemed to me that they hardly need any editing, besides cropping. So, here they are:
The flowers were so stunning that day and I am glad I caught a fraction of their beauty. Working on these makes me want to go outside now and take more pictures, but I am kind of afraid to go outside. I am afraid of getting dust in my post-surgical left eye. I can’t imagine how much that would hurt. I am afraid of falling down, since my depth perception (and balance) are worse than ever.
On a deeper level, I am afraid that I can’t see well enough to take any decent pictures. Writing this, I realize that I shouldn’t let this fear hold me back. What would be the worst thing that could happen, even if none of the pictures turn out to be usable? First, I would have wasted my time. But time is something I have lots of right now. The next couple of weeks are nothing but time to recuperate and I am free to waste a couple of hours taking photos that are no good.
Second, I might be discouraged when I upload the pics and see photo after photo that is unusable. I think I can rise above this discouragement, if it is to happen. I will admit that it is disappointing when “blind photography” goes bad. When I upload photos and can find nothing special, nothing editable, or even nothing in focus, I do get frustrated, However, I can remind myself that this is all a learning experience. The whole purpose of blind photography is to teach me about seeing the world in a new way. If one day of photos is unusable, I know that another day will yield surprising results. Yes, it is scary to think about taking pictures with my left eye (temporarily) blind and only my right eye to guide me. I don’t want fear to keep me from doing something I love, though. The flowers in the backyard are gorgeous and I think I will conquer my fear and go out and shoot some photos.