Writing a blog is hard on the ego. It’s not the writing, so much, that takes a toll. I love writing my daily posts. It’s the up and down of the numbers. Every day, I agonize over the number of page views my blog is receiving. On days when few people are visiting, I whine and complain. What am I doing wrong? Have my posts been boring? On days when the numbers are soaring, I try to analyze the success – Where are the viewers coming from? How are they finding my blog? Will they return? My numbers are very inconsistent. They skyrocket and then, the next day, plummet. (Seriously, my page views the last few days were 65, 35, 54, 186, 10) My hopes rise and fall along with my numbers.
There are innumerable people, out there in the blogosphere, writing about how to increase your numbers. (A google search for “increase blog traffic” returned 10,800,000 results.) You have to maintain several social networks. You have to constantly monitor other blogs, making relevant comments, getting noticed. I tried to promote my blog in these ways for a while, but promotion is really not what this is about for me. This blog is about writing. And my writing is about exploring my transition into low vision living – everything from my daily experiences, to the impact of grace on my life, to my attempts at photography, to advances in technology and education for the visually impaired, to the blind in scripture, literature and movies. I have had several nice comments from friends and family, saying that my blog helps them to understand what is happening with my vision. I have also had comments from others who are visually impaired or blind, saying that they have been where I am, that they are on this journey with me. Other comments have been from those who are visiting my blog to seek information about vitrectomy or avastin or vision problems. I welcome all comments. I am grateful for all my readers.
I have stopped trying to “drive traffic to my blog.” That is not to say that I don’t care whether anyone reads it. I care a lot. I just can’t base my happiness on how many views I get each day. I have to learn to get beyond the numbers game. This blog is about me trying to find the grace in my journey into low vision living and, hopefully, my journey inspiring others to find the grace in their lives and in their hardships. I want to be a positive influence in the world and this blog might be a tool to help reach that goal. I believe that, if I focus on that goal and write as well as I am able, I can put the numbers in their proper perspective. That is, they will be less important than writing interesting posts, and keeping in touch with those I love, and making new friends.