Riding A Roller Coaster

This past week was certainly a roller coaster with regard to my vision.  I went back to work Monday wearing glasses and made it through the day.  At the end of the day, I took off my glasses and collapsed.  On Tuesday, another glasses day, I went to work and then to the retina specialist for a surgery follow up.  The verdict was that I could not see well enough to drive, but that my eye was healed enough to begin wearing my contacts.  My rs suggested I wear my contacts for a few days and then come in for another vision test.  On Wednesday morning I put in my contacts and I could see.  I could really, really see for the first time in over a month.  I went to work with no incidents that day.  I had to wear my reading glasses to do any computer work, but I was expecting that and was okay with it.  Thursday, my eye became really sore and tired part way through the day.  I took out my contacts as soon as I got home after work.

Friday was the big day – vision test for driving.  I put in my contacts and knew I was going to “pass.”  I could see distances fine.  I went to the doc’s office and passed my vision test easily.  I was flying high, so happy that I would be able to drive.  On Saturday, I had a little trouble with my left eye.  It was very irritated and red, increasingly so as the day went on.  We were going out to dinner to celebrate Emily’s birthday and I really didn’t want to wear glasses, so I kept my contacts in.  This was a big mistake.  By the time we got home from the restaurant, my eye was really sore.  I put in antibiotic drops and went to bed, hoping it would be better when I woke up.

This morning, my eye is not better.  It is very red and hurts.  It is hard to keep it open.  I won’t be wearing my contacts today.  I am going to rest my eye today and hope that the redness is just irritation from my contact.  I am feeling bad about my vision today, after being so happy on Friday.  This week, my feelings about my vision have gone up and down, like a roller coaster of emotions.  I worry, I rejoice, I am sad, I am happy. I try not to base my emotions on the ups and downs of my vision, but it is hard.

Even though the individual days have brought a roller coaster of feelings, my overall attitude is still good.  I am very positive about the progress my vision has made since my surgery.  I am thrilled at being able to go back to work and at being allowed to drive.  I am so happy that I can see the beauty in the world around me.  I know that grace will help me through the rough days.  I am very thankful for the support of my wonderful friends and family.  I am very blessed.


4 thoughts on “Riding A Roller Coaster

  1. Belinda,
    As I read your story about getting glasses in Kindergarten, I was reminded of my mother’s story. She will be having eye surgery in a few weeks to correct her problem and she is hoping that she will finally after 61 years be contact and glasses free. Still praying. If you need me my cell number is 704-5916, call any time.

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