This past week was certainly a roller coaster with regard to my vision. I went back to work Monday wearing glasses and made it through the day. At the end of the day, I took off my glasses and collapsed. On Tuesday, another glasses day, I went to work and then to the retina specialist for a surgery follow up. The verdict was that I could not see well enough to drive, but that my eye was healed enough to begin wearing my contacts. My rs suggested I wear my contacts for a few days and then come in for another vision test. On Wednesday morning I put in my contacts and I could see. I could really, really see for the first time in over a month. I went to work with no incidents that day. I had to wear my reading glasses to do any computer work, but I was expecting that and was okay with it. Thursday, my eye became really sore and tired part way through the day. I took out my contacts as soon as I got home after work.
Friday was the big day – vision test for driving. I put in my contacts and knew I was going to “pass.” I could see distances fine. I went to the doc’s office and passed my vision test easily. I was flying high, so happy that I would be able to drive. On Saturday, I had a little trouble with my left eye. It was very irritated and red, increasingly so as the day went on. We were going out to dinner to celebrate Emily’s birthday and I really didn’t want to wear glasses, so I kept my contacts in. This was a big mistake. By the time we got home from the restaurant, my eye was really sore. I put in antibiotic drops and went to bed, hoping it would be better when I woke up.
This morning, my eye is not better. It is very red and hurts. It is hard to keep it open. I won’t be wearing my contacts today. I am going to rest my eye today and hope that the redness is just irritation from my contact. I am feeling bad about my vision today, after being so happy on Friday. This week, my feelings about my vision have gone up and down, like a roller coaster of emotions. I worry, I rejoice, I am sad, I am happy. I try not to base my emotions on the ups and downs of my vision, but it is hard.
Even though the individual days have brought a roller coaster of feelings, my overall attitude is still good. I am very positive about the progress my vision has made since my surgery. I am thrilled at being able to go back to work and at being allowed to drive. I am so happy that I can see the beauty in the world around me. I know that grace will help me through the rough days. I am very thankful for the support of my wonderful friends and family. I am very blessed.