Riding A Roller Coaster

This past week was certainly a roller coaster with regard to my vision.  I went back to work Monday wearing glasses and made it through the day.  At the end of the day, I took off my glasses and collapsed.  On Tuesday, another glasses day, I went to work and then to the retina specialist for a surgery follow up.  The verdict was that I could not see well enough to drive, but that my eye was healed enough to begin wearing my contacts.  My rs suggested I wear my contacts for a few days and then come in for another vision test.  On Wednesday morning I put in my contacts and I could see.  I could really, really see for the first time in over a month.  I went to work with no incidents that day.  I had to wear my reading glasses to do any computer work, but I was expecting that and was okay with it.  Thursday, my eye became really sore and tired part way through the day.  I took out my contacts as soon as I got home after work.

Friday was the big day – vision test for driving.  I put in my contacts and knew I was going to “pass.”  I could see distances fine.  I went to the doc’s office and passed my vision test easily.  I was flying high, so happy that I would be able to drive.  On Saturday, I had a little trouble with my left eye.  It was very irritated and red, increasingly so as the day went on.  We were going out to dinner to celebrate Emily’s birthday and I really didn’t want to wear glasses, so I kept my contacts in.  This was a big mistake.  By the time we got home from the restaurant, my eye was really sore.  I put in antibiotic drops and went to bed, hoping it would be better when I woke up.

This morning, my eye is not better.  It is very red and hurts.  It is hard to keep it open.  I won’t be wearing my contacts today.  I am going to rest my eye today and hope that the redness is just irritation from my contact.  I am feeling bad about my vision today, after being so happy on Friday.  This week, my feelings about my vision have gone up and down, like a roller coaster of emotions.  I worry, I rejoice, I am sad, I am happy. I try not to base my emotions on the ups and downs of my vision, but it is hard.

Even though the individual days have brought a roller coaster of feelings, my overall attitude is still good.  I am very positive about the progress my vision has made since my surgery.  I am thrilled at being able to go back to work and at being allowed to drive.  I am so happy that I can see the beauty in the world around me.  I know that grace will help me through the rough days.  I am very thankful for the support of my wonderful friends and family.  I am very blessed.