Circle Game

Fall is approaching and our two “boys” will be returning to school.  Our daughter, Emily, for the first time, will not.  She graduated from college in the spring and is diligently looking for a job.  I am positive that she will find one soon.  The boys (I should really say men at this point) are getting ready to begin school again – Sam will return to college and Ben to high school.  I am feeling a bit nostalgic and teary as the school year begins.  All three are so wonderful and I am so proud of them.

Joni Mitchell’s song Circle Game popped into my head the other day, as I was thinking about the boys returning to school.  In the song, the boys are 16 and 20, the same age as our two guys.

I keep thinking that time is flying by and soon our children will be gone.  They will be off chasing their dreams.  Some days it feels like Emily has one foot out the door already.  It is bittersweet to watch our children turn into adults.  I love the adults they are becoming and I want them to continue to grow and develop, but it is hard to watch them grow away from us.  Daily life is a constant balancing act – between holding them close and giving them freedom.

We are blessed to have good relationships with our children.  Each person that I have spoken with at ABVI has asked if the kids are willing to help me with things and how they are handling my loss of vision.  I am grateful to say that they are willing helpers and that they seem to be handling everything wonderfully.

And the seasons they go ’round and ’round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We’re captive on the carousel of time

I am so grateful that all three of our children could go with us to visit their aunt and uncle and cousins in Ohio.  I was thinking that it may be our last family trip for a while.  Who knows, with school and work schedules, when we will all be free to travel together again.

It is important that I focus on the joy of the present and don’t start worrying about the future.  I can not stop time from pressing forward.  The only control I have is to enjoy the time that I have with them now and make memories for us all to cherish in the future.  We have so many  happy times together to remember.  And now, we will have the memory of this Summer, 2010, when we shared Family Camp and Jackson and walking in Rochester parks and celebrating S’More Day and so many other good times.  I am truly blessed.


2 thoughts on “Circle Game

  1. Thanks for posting this video. It is one of my favorite songs about parenting. It’s sometimes hard not to worry about our children. I’ve heard it said that after having a child you walk around with your heart outside your body. I agree about how important it is to just cherish the time with our children and build fond memories. They are such a blessing.

    • Thank you for your comment. I am so glad you liked the video. It made me feel happy and sad at the same time, which is how I’ve been feeling about my “almost adult” children lately.

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