I’ve been playing telephone tag with my retina specialist for over a week. He is calling to give me the results of my PAM and LI tests. I went to the Strong Eye Clinic on September 17 for the tests and I have been waiting ever since for the results. I believe that these tests were to determine whether my current vision problem in my left eye is caused by a cataract or if there is another problem. The hope is that it is a cataract, because other problems are less treatable than cataract removal, which is easy surgery.
The test did not go particularly well, from my point of view. I could not see clearly through the instruments, so I am guessing that there is a problem other than the cataract. I don’t know how much more than that the rs is going to be able to tell me. I have been torn between being eager to hear the results and avoiding hearing the results.
Finally, yesterday, after several missed calls back and forth, I asked the tech on the phone if she could tell me anything about the test results. She looked at my chart and said that all that was written there was “no surgery.” Normally, those are words that anyone would love to hear. No surgery. Hooray. Except that I think, for me, that means that there is no “cure” for my current problem, no easy fix.
Now, I am eager to talk to my rs. I want to find out exactly what the test results were and what they mean. I want to know what is wrong with my eye. If it is not a cataract, what is the problem. He had mentioned at my last visit that the other problems were “less easily treated.” Whether it is easily treated or not, I want to know what is happening inside my eye. And, of course, I want to know the prognosis. So far, I have been able to deal with my diminishing vision. I think that part of the reason is that I have known what to expect. This new development is an unknown. Until I find out more information, I am on pins and needles. I am sure that I will be able to come to terms with it. It is the not knowing that is difficult.