Last night was a hard night. My husband, John, had to go out of town overnight for work. This rarely happens and I do not like it. On top of being gone overnight, he missed a meeting of our son Ben’s robotics team. Parents are encouraged to attend, so I filled in. I know absolutely nothing about robotics, engineering, computer programming, electrical systems, etc. I do, however, love Ben and want to support him and his team.
The meeting was in the evening, so I could not drive. We worked it out that our older son, Sam, would drive both of us to Ben’s meeting and then pick us up when it was over. I do have a friend whose son is on the robotics team, but she was unable to attend this meeting. I was really nervous, thinking that I wouldn’t know anyone and knowing that I don’t have a clue about robotics. We always encourage our children to face their fears, so I went along to the meeting. It was fine, of course. Everyone was nice and I even knew a couple of parents, after all. I did not feel foolish or embarrassed in any way. Best of all, it was great to witness Ben in his element. He is such a friendly guy and I am so proud of him.
So, the meeting went well. I wish I could say that the night went as well. I don’t know if all married people hate sleeping alone or if it is my own problem. I was awake most of the night listening to our house creak and sigh. I should have prayed. I could have listened to some music. Instead, I just lay in bed feeling anxious and lonely.
Here I am now, up before the sun. I feel amused by myself. Why did I make such a big deal out of being alone? I am a strong, independent woman. I could have worked on a project or listened to an audio book late into the night. I could have watched a “chick flick.” Instead, I wasted my alone time. I feel silly now, but it is too late to reclaim those hours.
All I can do now is learn from my experience. I can drag my sleepy body to work and then welcome my husband home this evening. I can let him know how much I love and missed him. I look forward to sleeping soundly tonight, knowing that he is there beside me.