I only have a few days left at my job at Nazareth College. Friday will be my last day, and I will start my new job at ABVI on Monday. This morning, someone from IT came and unhooked my Acrobat monitor from my computer and switched it for a regular monitor. I will take the Acrobat with me to my new job. The Acrobat is a monitor with a camera attached that enlarges paperwork and shows it on the monitor. It’s very cool. I thought I could manage for a few days with a smaller monitor, but today was a hard day. I had forgotten how small a “regular” monitor is – and how difficult to see.
This reminded me of a strange thing. When I am home, I feel normal. When I am in my office at work, I feel normal. It doesn’t even seem like I have vision problems. I know where everything is. I have made adaptations so that I can do all the tasks I need to complete. It’s only when I venture outside of the familiar or when an adaptation (like my Acrobat) is missing, that I am reminded that I have a “disability.”
Actually, most of the time it feels like I am pretending that I can see. I walk around campus and look toward people’s faces and smile and say hello, as if I can tell who they are. Most of the time I fool everyone into believing I can see, even myself. I have great “visual mapping” skills, so I can memorize the stationary parts of my surroundings and get around almost as well as a fully-sighted person.
I’m a little nervous about starting my new job because I will be spending a lot of time in a new, unfamiliar environment. It will be hard, at first, to fake that I know my way around. I am hoping that I can learn the floor plan quickly, so that I feel comfortable as soon as possible. At least I know that the people who work at ABVI understand about having low vision. I just really want to go in and start off on the best foot possible. I hope that I can do as well (and have as much fun) at ABVI as I have at Nazareth College. I believe that grace had a hand in guiding me to this job, so I also believe that grace will help me make a smooth transition.