Today, I came home from work really, really tired. I guess all the excitement and activity of the weekend caught up with me. We ate dinner early and I was ready for bed. I thought I would work on the computer or read, but Icould not keep my eyes open. I think I was asleep by 8:00pm. I slept so soundly that, when I awoke some time later, I felt so rested that my first thought was that I had slept through my alarm and was late for work. No problem, a quick check of the clock showed that it was only 2:00am.
So, here I am, wide awake in the middle of the night. There is something very peaceful and comforting and precious about this moment. Sometimes, when I am awake in the night I feel full of anxiety and begin to worry about all the unfinished business I have waiting for me. Tonight, though, I just feel very blessed. I can hear John breathing peacefully beside me. Our dogs are cuddled all around us on the bed. I know that our children are all home, snug in their beds. The house is making its “old house” settling sounds, but mostly this is a very quiet time.
I realize that I have been very busy lately. My life has been full of activity and tasks and conversation. This is wonderful and joyful, but I have not had much time to just be quiet with myself. With Lent beginning this week, I am aware that I need to give myself the gift of more silent time, more prayerful quiet. I can pray in the midst of my busyness, and I know that God is always with me, but sitting alone in the silence tonight, I realize that my spirit has been missing having quiet alone-time with my beloved creator.
I am thankful for this reminder. I am thankful for this moment, right now, when nothing is calling for my attention except my need to pray. I will close this post for now and wish everyone a night of peaceful sleep and a good day tomorrow. Before I go back to sleep, I will take some time to thank God for the grace and blessings in my life. I will thank God for this moment, this quiet, this peace.